Wednesday, July 29, 2009

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

For many, the most wonderful time of the year comes when the weather begins to get blustery, the jingle of the Salvation Army bell begins to ring, parents continuously remind children, "Santa is watching", and our homes fill with the smells of family--dirty laundry, turkeys, Christmas cookies and pine needles.  I love the Holiday Season, too.  Stories of The Grinch & flying reindeer, the joy & merriment of the spirit of the people around you, wrapping paper and Christmas Carols give me warm fuzzy feelings, too.

However, I think the most wonderful time of the year begins a few months sooner.

Ah, the start of school.

For most people, the Holidays and New Year is a time of new beginnings, resolutions, a chance to start over.  For me, August has always been that time. Unlike people "in the real world" (that was sarcasm, yes), teachers get to update themselves every 9 months.  We get to start fresh--new students, new supplies, new ideas, new parents.  Whatever mistakes I made teaching, either in content or with handling situations, I get to make it up and try again.  Sure, most of us don't change completely, but we get to start fresh.  Most jobs don't have that luxury.  You screw up, you live with it until your next job.  Summer has a magical way of erasing not just the bad memories of the year--but the mistakes, too.  With new class rosters is your chance to change the things that didn't work out--and try something new.  Of course, unlike "desk jobs", there are significant challenges that are brought about...but that, to me, is part of the fun.  Learning what the challenges are--and facing them.

And then there are the school supplies.  Forget holiday shopping--put me in an isle of new notebooks, pencils, markers, note cards, hot glue, construction paper.  New school supplies are a high like I have never experienced.  (I should have known I was destined to be a teacher--I've always loved new school supplies!)  There is something almost orgasmic about the way a brand new Uni Ball pen feels on a new, never been written on Mead 5-Star notebook (and yes, brand does matter when it comes to school supplies!)

The greatest invention was tax-free weekend...it is merely an excuse to buy more school supplies than I need.

One of the greatest things about starting fresh is coming up with new ideas and tweaking old ideas so that fit in the context of a new one.  For example, this year, I am having a "Facebook" Theme.  Students will not only fill out their own status updates & profiles for themselves, but for the characters in the novels that we read, too.  I like to try to get students engaged by utilizing new and cool ideas from pop culture.  It is how I try to stay "hip".

No, teaching high school is not all presents on Christmas morning.  Most of the time, I feel stuck in the aftermath of the holidays--you know, where you are sluggish because of too much triptophan?  But every once in a while, students actually "get" it.  And when they do, to see that light bulb go off....well, it's like opening that one present you've wanted all year on Christmas morning over and over again.

Monday, July 27, 2009

For the Record

My nine-year-old, 5th grade, Sarah Palin loving cousin has reminded me of something that I have been continuously been telling my father my entire life:  it doesn't matter what you meant or intended it is the perception of your actions that counts.

For this, I would like to set the record straight.

FOR THE RECORD:  It was not my intention to "call out" or upset my cousin, Aunt or Uncle.  I was merely using the Sarah Palin/Republican anecdote as just that--a short, specific  little aside to illustrate a larger point, laced with sarcasm revealing my own personal bias in an effort to make something funny.  This is my own personal writing style--certainly not meant to hurt anyone's feelings.

FOR THE RECORD:  I, too, think my uncle is one of the smartest people I have ever met.  And while I don't share his same political views, I respect his view point and most importantly, that we live in a country that allows us to have differing view points and still love each other.  I also immensely respect that he talks to his daughter about what is happening in the world and that she is more knowledgeable as a 5th grader than most of my adult friends.  It is my hope to give my child the same knowledge and forum as he does.

FOR THE RECORD:  I think that my Aunt and Uncle are amazing parents...besides my own, they are the people that I look up to the most and hope to model my parenting skills after.

FOR THE RECORD:  When Caroline grows up, I hope she is just like Madison--a passionate child with more charisma and savy in one small finger than most people have in the entire being.  And if Caroline likes Sarah Palin, I'll be okay with it (but I am certainly rooting for Hillary).

and finally, FOR THE RECORD:  It really wasn't my intent to upset anyone, and I'm sorry.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

misguided youth

My 5th grade cousin is obsessed.  With what?  Jonas Brothers, Facebook, dance, Miley Cyrus...oh yeah, and Sarah Palin.

I blame her father for misguiding her.  He told her once that I was a liberal.  She asked, "What's that?" and he replied, the enemy.  

I am the enemy in my family.

That's okay...better than being the ignorant.

Today, Sarah Palin is no longer Governor of Alaska.  Some of my friends see this as a bad thing--they are afraid that Mrs. Palin will gain momentum and potentially more support to help her raise a bid for the 2012 election.  But I don't.  I think that the Ethics Violations (and the half million dollars she's already forked out personally for her defense) offend most progressive, reasonable Americans.  Her true lack of experience is frightening.  Now she can add another adjective to her resume--quitter.  I don't think the American people are too keen on having a public servant who is willing to quit mid-term.  What happens if the Presidency gets too hard for her?  What then?  One of the greatest lessons my Dad ever taught me was that once you start something, you don't quit (so I wonder what he thinks of his girl Palin, now?).  Quitting is a true character flaw!  Forget that she was willing to abandon a special needs child to seek her own political gain.  Forget that her teenage daughter was knocked up before she graduated high school (and seriously?  that is a reflection on the parents, no matter how the Republican pundants try to spin it).  Once she begins her multi-million dollar book and speaking tour, pays off her debt, gets some more designer clothes, and continues putting her foot in her mouth...America will wisen up.  People are disabled financially and her "folksy charm" isn't going to make them feel better when she has private jets and the like.

Yeah, 100,000 people follow her on twitter.  10 times that follow Ashton Kutcher.  There are over 300 million Americans.  Sarah Palin is small potatoes.  People still remember the catastrophe that was the Katie Curric interview.  Or that Palin believes she can see Russia from her back yard...or that Joe completely annilated her in the Vice Presidential Debate.  She wants to run with the big boys (and girls...I would have LOVED to see Hillary run her down) but she can't...and if the Republicans are going to be that ignorant as to nominate her...then you ain't seen nothing yet.  BO will mop the floor with her so bad, she'll turn down the nomination before she gets a chance to apply her lipstick!

As for my misguided cousin...I still have hope.  She's only in the 5th grade...and it is kinda cute when she dresses up like Palin and wears her "Palin Power" button...but she doesn't really know better, she doesn't have a chance to know any better.  I have seen her generosity, love, and progressive nature--once she gets a chance to really "get" what is going on, she'll move over to my side.

And then we'll be allies.

Friday, July 17, 2009

i have absolutely NO concept...

...of boys and their toys.

BJ is absolutely OBSESSED with video games...particularly football and sports crap.  Since we've been together (like 3 years) he has had like 3 new X-Boxes because they keep breaking.  And no matter how much money is in the bank, once the X-Box breaks, he MUST get a new one.  Right then.  No exception.  I have seriously seen him have a spastic meltdown over the friggin' thing.

Luckily, the last one was bought new and with an extended warranty.  

So when it broke last week, all he had to do is take it to Best Buy and they fixed it...but he was without an X-Box for like 5 days...and this was College Football week...you know, the new College Football game that came out?  Yeah, I didn't know about it either...apparently it is a big deal.  So big, in fact, that he had to go to Target at 8 in the morning and get it (even when he didn't have an X-Box)...yes...at the doors when they opened.  To play a game he didn't have a system to play on.  After he bought his own copy, he spent the day at his buddy's house playing.  And several hours the next day.

And because he FINALLY got his system back last night, he played until the wee hours of the morning and then got up...he's up right now, 7:30 am, to play.  He just announced to me that the "first game of the high school play offs is against Fitzgerald"...like i care.  I saw REAL PLAY OFF GAMES in Fitzgerald...does he seriously think this matters???

I get that everyone should have something they enjoy doing...something that makes them happy...something that is fun...but I think my husband is sick and needs help.  He has unhealthy obsessions with things like golf, video games, gadgets...obsessions that are only quinched in the moment and must be met at those exact times...they are scary.  

I do not understand how grown men can spend hours (when they could be working, reading, god forbid, helping us around the house) playing some stupid video game.  Apparently he's in a "dynasty" whatever the hell that means.  I don't think I want to know.

I would just like an explanation...especially since I know if I went into my living room right now butt naked and tried to seduce him, he would push me out the way and tell me "I'm not in the mood"...

WHAT IS WRONG WITH BOYS??????

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

secrets...

i feel like the secret keeper of my family & friends.  i know things.  i know things i shouldn't but i do because people confide in me, i overhear information i shouldn't, i nose my way into details.  but then i have all this information that i can't do anything with...and i am of the belief that sometimes, you should tell the truth...hell, i'm a nonfiction writer.

like a certain someone i know...i think this person deserves to know that their sense of entitlement and inability to be patient has ruined their reputation and cost someone they care about deeply an opportunity they have worked extremely hard to attain.

i have a friend whose husband has inappropriate relationships with other women--especially when she is out of town.

i know that sometimes, small town police lie.

but i'm not really supposed to know any of this...and letting the secrets out won't do anything, really...just get people in trouble or upset or maybe not my friend...so what's the point, really?

i'll just carry the burden of truth.

Friday, July 3, 2009

DING DONG the witch is dead!!!!

from the Associated Press


ASILLA, Alaska – Alaska Gov. Sarah Palin abruptly announced Friday she is resigning from office at the end of the month, a shocking move that rattled the Republican party but left open the possibility she would seek a run for the White House in 2012.

Palin, 45, and her staff kept her future plans shrouded in mystery, and it was unclear if the controversial hockey mom would quietly return to private life or begin laying the foundation for a presidential bid.

Palin's spokesman, David Murrow, said the governor didn't say anything to him about this being her "political finale." He said he interpreted Palin's comment about working outside government as reflecting her current job only.

"She's looking forward to serving the public outside the governor's chair," he said.

And Pam Pryor, a spokeswoman for Palin's political action committee SarahPAC, said the group continues to accept donations on its Web site, with an uptick in funds after Palin's announcement.

The announcement caught even current and former Palin advisers by surprise. Former members of the John McCain campaign team, now dispersed across the country, traded perplexed e-mails and phone calls.

But personal pressures have been mounting — scrutiny on her family, legal bills, ethics investigations and a running, public fued with McCain's camp that has flared up again.

In a hastily arranged news conference at her home in suburban Wasilla, Palin said she will formally step down July 26, and Lt. Gov. Sean Parnell will be inaugurated at the governor's picnic in Fairbanks. She said she had decided against running for re-election as Alaska's governor, and believed it was best to leave office even though she had two years left to her term.

"Many just accept that lame duck status, and they hit that road. They draw a paycheck. They kind of milk it. And I'm not going to put Alaskans through that," she said.

The 2008 vice presidential nominee was seen as a likely presidential contender in 2012 and had proved formidable among the party's base. But the last week brought a highly critical piece in Vanity Fair magazine, with unnamed campaign aides questioning if Palin was ever really prepared for the presidency. The backbiting continued with follow-up articles recounting the nasty infighting that plagued her failed bid. Her advisers sniped with other Republicans, underscoring the deeply divided GOP looking for its next standard bearer.

Meghan Stapleton, Palin's personal spokeswoman, shot down speculation that ranged wildly from Palin dropping out of politics altogether to eyeing runs against fellow Alaska Republicans U.S. Rep. Don Young andU.S. Sen. Lisa Murkowski. Palin's comment about serving outside government refers to the present, she said.

Stapleton, however, said it's too early to say whether Palin would seek the presidency. In the meantime, the governor will continue to work "toward affecting positive change as a citizen without a title right now," she said.

"Her vision is what's best for Alaska, which translates into what's best for America," Stapleton said.

Palin's resignation, timed on the eve of the July 4 holiday when many Americans had already begun a three-day weekend, seemed designed to avoid publicity. She alluded to how she could help change the country and help military members — code that she didn't think her time on the national stage was over.

One senior Palin adviser, who spoke to the family in recent days, described the governor and her husband as tired of the constant media scrutiny. Nevertheless, the adviser was shocked to hear Palin's announcement Friday.

A longtime confidant who spoke on condition of anonymity to discuss private conversations, the adviser counseled the Palins that leaving government was politically unwise, but the governor was resolute.

Though the announcement touched off a flurry of speculation among Democrats and Alaska political bloggers that Palin had been drawn into one of the many criminal investigations that have upended Alaska politics in recent years, the adviser reported seeing no evidence of such an investigation and said if one is under way, then Palin has kept it to herself and it would be yet another surprise to supporters.

Jerry McBeath, a veteran political science professor at the University of Alaska Fairbanks, called the pending resignation a "smart move," both for Palin and the state.

But political analyst Larry Sabato, in Charlottesville, Va., said Palin's announcement left many confused. "I think it eliminates her from serious consideration for the presidency in 2012."

Palin said her family weighed heavily in her decision.

"I polled the most important people in my life, my kids, where the count was unanimous," she said. "Well, in response to asking, 'Hey, you want me to make a positive difference and fight for all our children's future from outside the governor's office?' It was four yeses and one 'Hell, yeah!" And the 'Hell, yeah' sealed it."

Palin's decision not to seek re-election was a familiar one for a potential presidential candidate. FormerMassachusetts Gov. Mitt Romney chose not to seek another term as he geared up for an unsuccessful 2008 presidential bid. Minnesota Gov. Tim Pawlenty has announced he won't seek another term, giving him plenty of free time ahead of a potential 2012 bid.

Palin emerged from relative obscurity nearly a year ago when she was tapped as then Republican presidential candidate John McCain's running mate.

She was a controversial figure from the start, with comedian Tina Fey famously imitating her elaborate updo and folksy "You betcha!" on "Saturday Night Live."

In the presidential race, Palin became the butt of talk-show jokes and Democratic criticism after news broke that the Republican Party had spent $150,000 or more on a designer wardrobe, accessories and hair and makeup services for her. The high-end spending spree contrasted with the down-to-earth image she sought to craft for herself and became an unwelcome issue for the McCain campaign.

She didn't leave the limelight once McCain lost the presidency. She recently led a public spat with "Late Show" host David Letterman over a joke he made about one of her daughters being "knocked up" by New York Yankees baseball player Alex Rodriguez during the governor's recent visit to New York. Palin's 18-year-old daughter, Bristol, is an unwed, teenage mother. Letterman later apologized for the joke.

Palin also complained that her 14-month-old son, Trig, who was diagnosed with Down's syndrome, had been "mocked and ridiculed by some mean-spirited adults recently." She didn't elaborate.

Fred Malek, a Republican strategist who has advised Palin over the past year, said Palin was "really unhappy with the way her life was going."

"She felt that the pressures of the job combined with her family obligations and the demands and desires to help other Republican candidates led her to decide not to run again. Once that decision was made, she realized, why not do it now and let the lieutenant governor take over and get a head start on his election," Malek said.

Palin's move also prompted speculation among bloggers and critics that the governor was facing a looming political crisis or embarrassment.

"There's got to be something below the surface that's about ready to come to the surface that quite potentially she just didn't want to deal with as governor," said Andrew Halcro, a Palin critic who lost the 2006 gubernatorial race to her.

There is, for example, a pending public records request from Linda Kellen Biegel, an Anchorage blogger who is seeking e-mails showing an effort by the Palin administration to smear her critics including those filing ethics complaints against the governor. Biegel, whose own ethics complaint was dismissed, also is seeking an investigation into the financial profits to the Palin family from racing sponsors of Palin's husband, Todd, in the 2,000-mile Iron Dog snowmobile race.

"There may be embarrassing things in there. I don't know," Biegel said. "I'm just as baffled as a lot of people."

Stapleton, Palin's spokeswoman, dismissed the rumors of damaging news on the horizon.

"No truth whatsoever. Period," she wrote in an e-mail to The Associated Press. "Just more nonsense from the same people who choose to waste state resources."

Palin was first elected in 2006 on a populist platform. But her popularity has waned as she became embroiled in partisan politics following her return from the presidential campaign. Her term would have ended in 2010.

Palin expressed frustration with her current role as governor.

"I cannot stand here as your governor and allow the millions of dollars and all that time go to waste just so I can hold the title of governor," Palin said, referring to the alleged impact of multiple ethics complaints against her, most of which have been dismissed.

Palin remaining as governor is not good for Alaska, given the "political bloodsport" by her critics, Stapleton said. Stepping down is a "fighter's move," Stapleton said, essentially Palin stepping around political barriers in her way and pursuing her vision.

Palin's announcement comes after several recent blows to the Republican party. Ensign, a member of the Christian ministry Promise Keepers, stepped down from the Senate Republican leadership last month after admitting he had an affair for much of last year with a woman on his campaign staff who was married to one of his Senate aides. Ensign later disclosed he had helped the woman's husband get two jobs during the affair.

A government watchdog group, Citizens for Responsibility and Ethics in Washington, wants the Senate ethics committee and the Federal Election Commission to investigate.

Just days after news of Ensign's affair broke, Sanford admitted an affair with a woman in Argentina. Some lawmakers are now calling for his resignation. Before the admission, Sanford had been missing from the state for five days visiting his lover. He had slipped his security detail, lied to his staff about where he was and failed to transfer power to the lieutenant governor in case of a state emergency.

The party's troubles seem to have left two prominent 2012 prospects, former House Speaker Newt Gingrichand 2008 presidential hopeful Mitt Romney, unscathed, however.

Palin has the potential to make far more money in the private sector than the $125,000 or so she has been making as governor.

Palin already had a deal with publisher HarperCollins to produce her memoirs, with publication planned for next spring. Terms of the deal have not been disclosed. Six-figure book deals are common for high-profile political figures.

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Associated Press writers Mark Thiessen in Anchorage, Beth Fouhy in New York and Sandy Kozel, Matt Apuzzo and Sharon Theimer in Washington, D.C., contributed to this report.