i lost myself in mint chocolate chip ice cream...

so twenty pounds (probably more, now) heavier and i vow to walk almost everyday.  but there is a severe weather alert out...i've had a few cramps today...i am a bit exhausted for some reason (why, i don't know) so i found my saved dvr's, made myself a cup of creamy mint chocolate chip ice cream and ordered a pizza (this is my life when my husband is out of town).  yes, i ate dessert first.  sometimes, you just need to.  no.  sometimes, you just want to.  and so i lost myself in a cup of creamy yet chunky mint chocolate chip ice cream and decided to forget about the calories (hey...i'm pregnant!).

then i remembered that i taped the today show.

and i watched bristol palin.

i can't say what i think about bristol palin because honestly, i don't know if i really have a particular feeling.  (i have a very particular feeling about her mother...it's not very nice...let's just say that she and george w. bush better not ever show up at my house because after i tell them how i really feel, i'll slam the door in their face then call the cops for trespassing).  after bristol went on national tv and said that abstinence is unrealistic for teenagers, she is now the spokesperson for a national abstinence campaign.  SERIOUSLY??? 

first, i operate under the assumption that all teenagers are having sex, smoking pot and getting drunk every weekend.  perhaps this is stereotypical and wrong; however, it alleviates a lot of angst on my part and when i found out they aren't doing these things, i can be surprised in a good way not a bad way.  and i think that it is a sad truth that abstinence is not realistic for teens today.  but it is a truth.  we have created a society in which sex and drugs are normal.  my students don't think that smoking pot is really doing drugs.  and they don't think twice about drinking and driving.  i teach a kid who is a really great kid--good, strong christian family and high moral integrity.  he lost his virginity as a freshman.  in the six or so months that he and his girlfriend have broken up, he's slept with at least five girls.  he has not "dated" a single one of them.  why i know this, i don't know...for some reason, they like to tell me things.  like this 11th grade girl who confessed she'd already had an abortion.  or the 10th grade girl who confessed she had an std.  or the guy who's girlfriend broke up with her because he wouldn't sleep with her.

teens are being pressured to be adults and their brains (and bodies) can't handle the decisions or the consequences.  the pressure is just too great.

i get what bristol palin is trying to do...but i don't think her current position on teen sex is real.  it's not realistic.  we can't tell these kids "don't do it"...even if that is what we want to say.  even that is what the right thing to say is.  i wish i had waited.  more than that...i wish i would have had sex with my husband when we were in high school...then we wouldn't have broken up.  but then again...i might have gotten pregnant at 18 instead of 28...

i don't know how to solve these problems (and i know, realistically, i can't).  but i don't think bristol palin going on national tv and saying "DON'T DO IT" is going to do any good.

it scares me.  it makes me depressed.  i think i'll eat another bowl of ice cream!